Day three.........What drives me?

Oh boy, and I thought yesterday was a tough one. Hehehehehe. I can see myself in several of those descriptions he gives that folks are driven by. In pastoring, I can see that I have definitely tried too hard to please others. I can see to some degree I've been trying to please others by doing things I know I wasn't called to do. It's kind of scary knowing that you're going to let folks (you really love) down who are counting on you. I guess I've known for some time what I need to do, I've just been afraid to do it. Or actually I did, then chickened out. Hehehehe.

Now as for the question of the day......
"What would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? What do I want it to be?"

Oh dear. I hadn't really ever pondered this. I mean I can think of what I'd want them to say, or hope they say.......But as for knowing, or guessing? Gee. I would like them to say Jesus. I try to stay God-focused and look for opportunities to share His love, mercy, and grace. I always have a smile on my face, and it's not a fake one, or a forced one. I really am happy. I do realize that I am lacking a true focus on my life...Hence the need to read this book. I guess I've tried to do too many things and not really done any of them very well. I'm pastor, singer songwriter, business owner (run two businesses), and online message guy. I post messages to three different Yahoo groups........Sermons for lack of a better term. I can see as I step back (I'm out of town right now on a mini-vacation) that I am trying to do too much and I'm trying to be everything everyone wants me to be......... Six months ago I hit the wall so to speak. It was just too much. Then I got back to where I was in just a month or so. I jumped right back into what I realized I had to stop. Crazy huh? I'm praying that I can make more God-centered decisions and fewer that are made just to please people. :-) James